=)

♥ 1:44:00 PM

I still rememeber i ask you to download this song for me.
Now, I wanna share this song with you=).

♥ 1:41:00 PM

Like nice show.

♥ 2:45:00 PM

♥ 2:41:00 PM

Listen this songs makes me my heart pain more.

♥ 2:28:00 PM

♥ 2:25:00 PM

我们的问题 你还没发现
继续走下去 势必又重演
你总是笑得疲倦 我总在忍住眼泪

♥ 1:34:00 PM

Keep having bad dreams lately.



I used to think that i can be your support and pillar.
But it seems like I am now the reason of your pain and hurt.
That why leaving will be a better choice.

And i lent from you a lot a lot of happiness.
Your life will have a slight change.
You will find that,
There will be a one person less to accompany u eat dinner.
Ask you wake up when you are sleeping soundly.
Fight with you.

You might be a bit scare.
You might not get used to it.
But it is all temporaily.
One day,
Happiness and smile will go back to you.

♥ 10:45:00 PM

I thought somehow it will be easy when i said it.

Somehow, each path i take.
Each step i take.
It is torturing me day by day.

It makes me think so much.
It brings me back the past.
So much happy memories that i forgotten.

Fetching me from tuition.
Making me happy by sending me home.
So how, if i once said it will not affected me, I am lying.


Walking back home with me.
It just seems so. unreal.
But it is too late.
I left him.


So much that i realised.
I look too much on the negative side.
That i look overboard on the postive side.
Why i chose him in the first place.

Nothing can repair his heart.
Hurt has been done. It also does on me.
I just wish he will be happy.
No matter where he is, I will pray for him to be happy as he used to.
For some reason, I just miss him.
My heart miss him.

Sounds like a joke to him,
but my life just stop. His love does conquer not only my heart. But mind too.
I must be a stupid fool to let him go. But all is too late. and I lie to him
Nothing can be repair anymore.

I must move on, and live my life which i used to live.
=) Hoping i can take care of my own health.
Single might be tough. But it is alright=) At least i know he will feel less stress with me.
and I won't scold him anymore. =).

♥ 7:45:00 PM

How long issit since i used blog.
HAHAS it has been long.

Why this kind of life that has to make me so so so confused.
If i can, i would take this part of my life away.

But too bad, nothing can take it away.
I have to face it.
But i always avoid. Because I am too afraid to see the outcome.
This whole week has been a torture and terrible feeling.

I don't think he will see this post.
I just wanted to type this out.

You are the only one who will ever can build my heart up to the highest.
So many guys tried to build my heart
None succeeded.
Loving me as hard as you? None has done that
Most of them give up half way.
They don't have the patience like you do.
They don't have the courage like you do.
They don't have much good quailites as you.

But why i am letting go.
I am not good enough.
I will never be.
I will always look why you are so not good. so not good.
But actually, you are too good for me.
I feel inferior.
I feel i will lose you one day and i cannot accept.
I rather i lose you now.
When my heart can try to be braver and strong enough.
and when work can cover every inch of my heart.

With you, I always feel happy.
Though some parts i always is angry.
I want to cherish you, but i fail.
Somehow or rather i really fail.

I am just silly to let go.
I just know.
I don't want you to suffer with me.

I brought so much misery. hurt, pain. and disappointment.
I just. dun wan to lean on people.
i just dun wan to go through the pain i suffer.
Which i made you suffer in the result of it.
I realised I am selfish.

♥ 11:24:00 AM

Sometimes i faced more than just one smile.
Sometimes there is so much to care and to consider about.
I sometimes don't know which is right or wrong.

I always feel. Giving in too much is wrong.
But sometimes we need to give in in order to have peace among us.
In the past, I used to give in to HIM.

And i neglect about Friends.

Now, things change.
I wanna balance balance both out.
But i realised it cannot be balanced.


I know there is a different HIM.
But, I am afraid to lose friends too.
I lose before and it is hard to get them back.

I cherish each and every of them.
Though i know some might not be good. But to me, they were at part of my lifes which you wasn't.
They build up my hope, my heart and my determination.

I really tried my best in balancing.
But i seriously cannot continue with this kind of pressure.
The more you force, I will ignore and avoid both side.
Don't force me to say anything.
I know choosing to avoid is not the best.
But it will lessen my pressure and makes me more happier.
I don't wish to put unneccessary saddness in my life anymore.


Sometimes I really don't know what to let go anymore.
The only thing i know is letting myself go.

♥ 1:39:00 PM

Sometimes is best to let go.
I can see the hurt in her heart.

I can feel your heart beating stronger each time when I am leaving.
Stop making me confuse.
I need to make my decision.
And I already knows my decision where it will be.

It belongs to him. And no longer to yours. I believe it is the right decision.
He love me for who i am. He loves me more than you could give me.
He is gentle, kind and caring.
And most importantly, He treats me as his important person in his heart.

You should stop everything when you can. And bring your heart back to her.
I am nothing to you. I know. Stop holding on to me..
You are making her hurt.

♥ 9:48:00 AM