juz nw i saw him.
he pass by me.
i nvr thought i would see him again. seriously i swear.
but the feelings is like frends?
but i feel happy and more happy.
duno maybe i haven gotten over ba?

weird gal tt all i can say abt myself.

and for ken.
i didn't cheat ur feelings.
if i reali did.
i would have spend all ur money.
if i reali did?
i would have ask u buy a car instead of askin u to save up first and plan.
if i reali did?
i would not have went out and have happy times wid u.

i duno wat make u think until like tt.
i juz wanted my space.
and ya i noe i shld nt like ignoring u like this. as wat my frend say.
i shld have told u.
I was tryin to make my feelings clear.
i did during this 2 months.
i dun nid a guy in my life.
i cnt enuff to fall for anyone.
so ya.
if u are readin this.
u are my last exbf.

cuz i feel in my condition nw.
i cnt even love my family, myself and my frends well.
how am i goin to love my loved 1 well.?
so i dun intended to go for r/s tt soon.
after u indeeded there are a few guys who me.
but i rejected.
like the kawa guy.
he did ask me.
but i rejected.

i noe wat i say now.
u might nt believe and feel i am still cheatin ur feelins.
but i can tell u.
i went through the few days of r/s wid u.
i am reali happy cuz no1 have ever treated me like this.
bringing me to new places and makin me feel like his gf.
and i did fall for u.
but the onli thing i cant control is ur controllin of gf.
ya tt is the onli reason.
sometimes i noe i neglected u becuz i put my frends first before bf.
cuz i feel frends are impt.
without them now, i dun think i can know u already.
cuz after my break-up they are the first who are der for me.

tt why i realised tt i nid to love them first. and i feel i didn't put a lot.
and i cnt have a bf nw. tt is wat i told myself.

i would not say sry to u
cuz it is pointless.
it have been done cnt be turned back.
i hurted u and i cnt turn the clock.

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